Where to start? Well first things first, I need to put a plan in place and I need to contact a few people, namely the AAI and Pete Reilly. My plans have been forced to undergo a major reorg.
Since I am in poor to desperate spirits I will keep this short. My knee, for want of a better term, is wrecked. The adjective that the Dr kept using was 'Screaming'. On that note, I was very fortunate to get in and see Dr Brian McKeon who works with the Boston Celtics. It gave me confidence to know that in the morning before I had my consultation the Dr was with Kevin Garnett. Not that NBA or any professional sports players are more important than Joe Soap, rather it means he has a clear understanding of the desire to compete and push the body beyond where it wants to go. I believe the surgeon that scoped my knee last year had little understanding of how serious I was when I told him that it would take A LOT to stop me from training extremely hard again. Dr McKeon is the opposite, he was very straight to the point, he was very quick to present me with the situation, and he was very quick to give me the simple scenario without a care to whether he was offending me or not. I love this. Don't give me any bullshit about how too much running is bad for the knee. Tell me exactly what my options are because you know I want to get back to the very best I can be.
So here is the quick bullet point layout of my diagnosis:
- 1cm x 1.5cm piece of cartilage dislodged and floating in my knee
- Major bone contusions on the surface of my femur and tibia.
- Stress Fracture on the surface of my tibia
- Lots of swelling and general mess
Here is the quick bullet point of the doctors recommended plan:
- No Run for 3 months
- Synvisc injections every Friday for 4 weeks
- Wear a special brace that will relieve pressure on my medial joint line
- Aggressive PT to strengthen my quad
-Reintroduce weight baring on Alter G after 3 weeks
-Follow up MRI in 7 weeks to determine if Surgery is necessary
I asked for Surgery now but since the knee is in such a mess he refused to go in now. I am confident in his plan and I am viewing the situation with some optimism. The reason for this is that I only trained 15 weeks after 6 months off and went from 10 pound overweight to winning a national title. If I can get back training by the summer I will still be flying by Euro XC.
The downside of all this is that the DR said that from initial viewing of the MRI it looks like I am going to have to deal with chronic knee pain for the remainder of my career and that I will only be able to run the bare minimum moving forward. I'm thinking about 50 MPW with the rest of the time on the Bike and Alter-G.
The depression is related to being injured again. I thought I did everything right during this build up but again I get a serious injury. I really don't know what I did to deserve this. I barely averaged 50 MPW for the last 15 weeks. Only 2 weeks over 75. Only 3 races. It sucks ass big time and despite the Doctors plans I have to ask myself whether or not I am ready to deal with the cycle again. I told everyone who reads this Blog that one more serious injury and I am DONE. But something inside me won't let go. I will enjoy bike riding for a while but I will look at the pics from the National XC and remind myself, 15 weeks of training.
More thoughts to come but that is the gist of it.
Thank you all for the support and lets believe that "There Is A Light That Never Goes Out"